"Why?!"

I'm tired...tired of the way life is
I'm tired...tired for fighting without rest and have no results
I'm tired...tired of all
I don't wanna live but I don't wanna die too I just don't wanna exist anymore
Everytime I try to put my face a little up
Everytime I think one battle its over I see that it don't even started
I'm sick...sick of the way I'm tired
I'm sick...I can't sleep anymore
I'm sick...my smiles are fake for so many times
Why does everything goes wrong with me?
Why does as the time goes by I'm getting worst?
I'm weak...Can't even deny it anymore
I'm weak...Can't even stop thinking anymore
I'm weak...Why can't I taste the sweetness of opening the right door?
I can hardly breath, and even it brings me pain
I wanna look back and see something was not in vain
I cry...I cry in silence where the light don't go
I cry...I bleed inside day and night
I cry...No one can help me, not even I
I've tried everything but nothing stops it for much long
Don't know what to do, don't know who am I
And because of it all I just scream when I cry
I scream...scream inside till I got no voice
I scream...scream like I'm gonna die and I have no choice
I scream...scream cause I can't take this pain anymore
I quit..Game Over...can anyone give me a coin?!
I'm full...full of playing the sick game of life
I'm full...full but I don't wanna quit cause I feel I gotta win it
I'm full...full like I'm drowning on a childs pool
My lungs are burning with so many watter
My feets are heavy like the heaviest stone
I don't wanna be together, I don't wanna be alone
Who am I?
Where is my life?
Why don't anyone left me an advise?
IS THAT ANYBODY IN THIS FUCKING DARKNESS?!?!
Looks like I heard some voices telling me to find a light
But I start thinking there's no light there
Feels like I'm buried alive
Don't even recognize that voices
Why are they screaming so loud?!
What happened?!
They used to whisper some good words to me
Why do they shutted?!
Why is so cold there?
Am I death already?!
Why am I questioning if no one can answer me?
Why am I here...
Why am I trying...
Why am I...I !?
Damn it...:\

Sceptrus